Failed, Depressed, and Recovered

In December of last year, I lost roughly 10 pounds and kept it there for weeks.  I thought it would be a permanent change unless I go back to the way I used to live.  I was motivated and on it.  I felt better and I was more confident than ever.  Even my wife noticed the difference in my attitude.

In January of 2009, my elliptical broke.  I stopped working out and gained back everything I lost and some more.  I was so depressed I almost abandoned the blog and gave up on the weight loss journey.  Back in September, I weighed at 205 pounds but now I'm 210.  It's amazing how easily the weight can come back.  It's even scary.

Yes, I'm 210 pounds, probably one of the worst moments in my life.  No one failed me, I failed my self.  I discovered that I lack self-discipline when it comes to weight loss.  That's the most important thing that I need to work on.  When the exercise equipment broke down, I could've found different ways to exercise.  But I made excuses and got lazy.

I know I failed once again.  I think it's third attempt since I started this blog.  I'm ashamed, but I have to admit my failures and move on.  I'm going to start again and try my best this time.  I really want to make it happen, but if I ever fail again, I will stand up again.

Thanks for your emails and encouragements while I was down.  I really appreciate your thoughts and support.